Awaken

Last week was my toxic swish week. The only time I take breaks swishing was during meetings, eating and TV time and my 6-hour sleep. It was really brain crunching... I have to get my creative juices out... And I miss doing that for the one thing I used to love doing... serving CFC community.

September 17 was SFC Global One. Together with all SFCs having simultaneous the 150 in 1 Event, we prayed for unity and fire for 153 CFC countries. For quezon on that night, God answered a different call. Yes, it answered unity and fire. But not for other areas. We felt our own need for God and for the province.

The praisefest (for me lang) was not that heart thumping. Being conscious all the time for the projected lyrics the band will be playing(to which iba sa binigay nila sa 'king sequence!), really destructed me. 1am (on September 18th) was supposed to be party time and I thought I will be leaving the event drier than before. But, Tanty came to me asking if Jenny could share. As a background, Jenny has the gift of prophecy. As in everytime we really pray, walang mintas to... puro messages ni God. And everytime, I listen. Afterwards, I cry and ask God for forgiveness. God's message through Jenny was clear and consistent. For years we have been together, it always has been.

He loves us. It really pinched His heart to let His Son die for our salvation. But what hurts even more was when we don't seem to appreciate and love Him still.

At this point, many were crying. Kasama ako dun.

God adds that he notices our emotional cries during His messages. He feels that we want Him during those time. But after that, nobody cares again. We still ended up doing nothing . And that makes Him more sad 'cause when he comes in 10 years, He wants to save us and not give us pain. He pleads for our love. And that love consists action.

Lord... Sorry...

Sabi nga sa 'kin ni Tanty, a lot of destructions will come into mind during the prayer... but for people to feel God's presence during that prayer doesn't come first from the people around you, it starts within oneself... "kung ayaw nila, magpe-praisefest na lang ko ng sarili ko." And that struck me. Kung ayaw nyo magserve, eh di magseserve pa din ako.

Lord... Help me do something for Your greater glory.