Confessions, not quite

I got my heart broken two years in a row (ha?!?! ‘diba last year lang?) and I think I am getting better in mending (not that I am asking for another one, papa jesus).

How?

When Mr. Big left Carrie at the end of Sex and the City's first season, she said “After he left, I cried for a week. And then I realized I do have FAITH. Faith in myself -- Faith that I would one day meet someone who would be sure that I was the one”. Thank God for SATC's quotable quotes, it really helped me move on. (hehe) Carrie was right as usual. We just have to trust that from the pain, something good (hopefully someone) would come out of it.

As for me, I learned to see that the pain I experienced formed me to love THE ONE better – that the next relationship will be a lot better than the previous. I, now, see that I have to be confident in loving and not to hesitate showing it as long as he is happy and I am in my right mind.

For the past months, my heart has been in a monthly cycle. As in parang may period at kasabay talaga. Okay for so many weeks, then dramatista the next day. At first, I thought a verbal closure will end these heart lapses and hopefully turn a ‘wrecked super friendship in denial’ into what it used to be – a friendship not worthy of bearing any risk of impairing. But as the drama queen suffers a blow, frustration sinks in and apathy later resides. From then, I said that as long as I do not see him, I will be okay. And I have been. Yet, I saw him unexpectedly and my heart beat more than usual. Surprisingly, when he nodded hi, I realized that my world didn't stop. We talked a little bit and we parted. Still, there were my ‘should I text him’ moments, ‘sayang alang closure’ thoughts and ‘piso texts’ for prayers of moving on. And when I woke up, God granted my wish. I am really all right. And I hope I will continuously be from now on. I’ll see when my period comes (hehe!).

Nga pala, ‘pag tinanong nyo ko tungkol sa blog na to – deny ko na blog ko to!

yesterday's sigh

The last week of October was supposed to be my gimmick-pack week. Enchanted Kingdom (which for now they saw was better than the Chinese Disneyland), Singapore and Kuala Lumpur. Okay naman syang ipagpalit sa napakadaming meetings, diba?! I'm sure most would agree.

But no, pag career ang katapat! Diba, mitzikay?! hehe!
Oh well! God has his plans for doing so.

Till february, KL shoes(es).

Fairy Tales or Not

Ewan ko nga ba kung san ako mas nabigla... a 13-foot Burmese python eating a 6-foot American alligator at a park at Florida or Katie Holmes being pregnant for 6 months!?! Sa tingin nyo?!I don't know have any grudge with Katie Holmes. 'Di kami close. But I liked her during the first few seasons at Dawson's Creek. I was even a fan of the Pacey-Joey loveteam. But seriously, I had never thought that the whirl wind romance between the her and Tom Cruise would result to a baby in 3 months. But still, being pregnant the first month they were dating?!?!!? Maybe fairy tales do come true... at least for the girl on the creek. Yun nga lang... Sana the alligator the snake apparently swallowed really turned out like a dream meal that could lasted him for the week. It turned out to be his last supper. Lessons learned for both: "Huwag matakaw!"

Tawa na lang tayo

Kung bakit nga naman ang hilig nating mga Pilino na ngumiti at tumawa. Kahit puno na ng problema ang bayan, todo pa rin sa pagpapatawa... Halimbawa na lang ang infamous text message ngayon na "Cory cannot tell a lie. Gloria cannot tell the truth. Erap doesn't know the difference." Nakakalungkot lang isipin na puro pagtawa ang sagot natin sa mga problema kasi sanay na tayo. Sanay na tayo sa problema... Sanay na sa kahirapan ng bansa. Sanay na tayong maumay sa pagpilit na may pag-asa pa. Sanay na tayo sa mga gawain ng lideratong mas malaki sana ang magagawa para guminhawa ang Pilipino. Sanay na tayong walang kasagutan ang mga problemang matagal ng dinadala. Hay naku! Buti na lang at nandiyan si Miriam... mas napapadali ang pagtawa. Bwahahaha!

A car that fits the Adormeos

Finally, a car that could seat all members of my family. Kuya and Daddy at the front, my 3 pamangkins and I at the back and mommy and Ate Ana with the baby in the middle. Ooopsss... Pano na ang gamit namin... ang stroller?! hmmmm... Bahala na magkasya! :D