a draft of my love letter

For the longest time, I wanted myself to fall madly in love again. I want to experience again the kind of love that creates butterflies in my stomach and tingles in my spine. I want my tan cheeks to blush and my body to flinch every time I remember him.. I want my mouth to stop eating even when I am so hungry simply because he's there... I want to see Blessie in love with someone and not with the idea of having someone.

This happens…

… somewhat.

For the longest time, I wanted to be in love and be loved back. I want to feel like someone's princess again... a girl so special being loved by that equally special someone. A someone who makes me laugh and cry at the same time. That someone who would not dare leave me and tries to be with me longer than forever. Someone who keeps his promises.

Sigh…

For the longest time, I told myself I will meet him soon. But it has been never been soon so far. A lot of waiting, preparing and praying has happened already. And I sometimes grew tired of that. But I know I just have to keep on preparing and praying harder because I want that someone to be with me sooner...

Please, Lord!

For the longest time, I have created myself a possibility for me and my life the possibility of being a princess to my prince. I do not know who he is yet. But I know he is just there looking for me as well. And I will know who he is soon.

For the longest time, I have been preparing for him to come into my life. I know I am still in the process of preparing myself for him but I do hope the preparations I did are enough to meet him already.

Or do I still have to work on my love handles before we meet?

For the longest time, I do hope we are already in the same block. In our separate sides, we are walking closer towards the corner... towards each other.

For the longest time, Lord. I know You are guiding us. And I know we are just a few steps away from each other.

Lord, help us find each other now, please.